The Path of Loneliness is Paved With Doughnuts...

Okay, so this has been a bad weekend for me in the whole 'want to lose weight' arena.

My son who is one of my best friends has been gone since Wednesday.

My lover has also been gone since Wednesday.

I have felt alone, and let my depression lead me down the doughnut path.

I had been doing pretty well, until my five year old woke me up this morning with chocolate around her mouth and a big huge kiss.

I swear if she hadn't moved away so quickly I may have grabbed her up in my arms and licked her face clean!!!

What I did instead was crawl out of bed, make a big pot of delicious coffee with chicory, (Thanks My Sweet Prince, you were right, I DO love it!) and drank my first cup with two cigarettes and two Boston creme filled chocolate covered doughnuts!

I have to admit, it was almost an orgasmic experience!

BUT, and here is the BIG but....

I will not let this slip lead to more slips by beating myself up over it.

I decided to skip lunch today, I mean, I had already consumed more than enough calories, even though they weren't the right ones!

And tonight I will have a GREAT salad instead of the pork chops the kids will be having for dinner.

It will be fresh baby spinach leaves, green onions (I wish I had bought myself a sweet purple onion, I love them in salads), cherry tomatoes, purple grapes (to satisfy my sweet tooth), bell peppers, cucumbers, and avocado. I will top it off with a half a serving of a GREAT salad dressing I found. It tastes wonderful, but it has 120 calories and 7 grams of fat per serving. I am grateful that a half a serving is all I really need, if I toss the dressing well into the salad, I never miss the other half serving. (It is Briannas Home Style Blush Wine Vinaigrette if anyone is interested.)

So, I will just get back on track. And I really need to get that scale and a tape measure so I can start tracking my progress. I will make SURE I do that THIS WEEK!

Oh, I want to add, one thing I DID do was to buy myself a hula hoop. It has been so much fun, even though I suck at it. I have been working hard trying to get good at it again, and while I am having a fun time playing with my daughters, I am MOVING MY BODY!!!

That's all.

The small plate trick...

Okay, so I have been told that a person will eat less, just because they use a smaller plate. We are preconditioned as fat Americans to fill our plates, and to eat everything on them. So the theory is, if you use a smaller plate, you trick the mind, and end up eating much fewer calories.

So, I tried it last night, and the truth is, I didn't eat much. I don't know if it is because I was so tired by the time I ate that I wanted sleep more than food, or if my brain was actually fooled by the smaller plate.

Either way, I have decided to eat all my meals on salad plates instead of dinner plates.

That's all for now. Goodbye.

Okay, so I'm fat...

Okay, so I'm fat. I have known this for sometime. A LONG TIME.

I have been reading a wonderful blog by a beautiful young lady who is struggling with weight loss, and it has made me feel like a lazy slug.

I guess it is time for me to do something about it.

I guess I will start today.

I have no clue what I weigh.

I have no clue, cause I do not own a scale.

**LIST OF THINGS TO DO**
1.) Buy a scale


Well, I guess that will be a place to start.

I will be back in a few days knowing what I weigh.

I will get pictures so I know where I started, and how I end up.

UGH...

Why does she have to motivate me?
Why couldn't I just be happy being a lazy slug.

That's all, goodbye.